Her skin was cool, but her eyes looked fever-bright.
I told her we were going to the doctor the next day.
She shook her head weakly.
“Dad will be mad.”
I remember that more clearly than almost anything.
Not “Will I be okay?”
Not “What’s wrong with me?”
Dad will be mad.
The next afternoon, I waited until Robert texted that he had a late meeting.
Then I took the insurance card, Maya’s school ID, and the little folder where I kept her vaccination records.
I helped her into the passenger seat of our SUV.
She moved like every step had to be negotiated with her own body.
A small American flag clipped to our mailbox snapped in the wind as I backed out of the driveway.
I almost turned around once.
Not because I doubted Maya.
Because years of living with Robert had trained me to hear his voice even when he was not there.
Too expensive.
Too dramatic.
You always overreact.
Then Maya leaned her head against the window and closed her eyes.
I kept driving.
Riverside Medical Center sat off a busy road with a pharmacy on one side and a gas station on the other.
I had passed it a hundred times without thinking.
That day, the automatic doors felt like the entrance to another life.
At 3:46 p.m., I wrote Maya’s name on the hospital intake form.
The receptionist asked for her date of birth, insurance, symptoms, and emergency contact.
My pen shook over Robert’s name.
I wrote it anyway.
Then I checked the boxes.
Abdominal pain.
Nausea.
Dizziness.
Fatigue.
Unexplained weight loss.
Seeing those words lined up together made my throat tighten.
It looked less like a complaint and more like a warning.
The nurse who called us back was kind in the brisk way hospital people get when they are trying to be gentle and efficient at the same time.
She took Maya’s temperature.
She checked her pulse.
She wrapped the blood pressure cuff around Maya’s thin arm and frowned at the numbers without saying why.
Maya watched the cuff inflate like it had personally offended her.
